September 21, 2007

There are so many things I've been thinking about during the last few weeks that I always think would be fun to put down in the blog, but by night time, I've been so tired I haven't been up for recalling the funny things Carson's said or the silly things Livi's done, or they ways in which they completely humble me (like this week when I got really frustrated at Carson and pulled him out of the car to make him go back inside to go potty before we left cuz we were in a hurry, and I sat outside the bathroom waiting for him so I could quickly direct him back to the car, when I hear him saying thru this teeth, "I hate it when my mom does that...I hate it when she talks to me like that..." I was all choked up hearing him talk to himself like that about me, and the bad way I treated him. So when he came out, I wrapped him up in my arms and told him 1. I'm sorry, 2. I shouldn't have spoken so harshly and pulled you out of the car so hard, & 3. will you please forgive me? He graciously forgave me and we went along our way, we weren't even Bible study!!!) I hate it when the nasty side of me comes out at my kids. No wonder Carson talks to me the way he does sometimes, they are little mirrors. God's working on ripening that fruit of self control in my life.

Here's a video from a few weeks ago, as you can see, it's a wonderful world for a boy at the beach!


The Mathisons said...

Those aren't easy moments! I've had those "Bible Study" days... I am learning so much by being a parent... it is good to know that we are all growing moms and parents together and that God uses us to encourage one another... thank you for your honesty, it is refreshing. I also like the fun things too... you and your family seem to really enjoy life!

Angie said...

Hi sweet friend. Of course this post brought me to tears because I'm guilty of the same situations. Thanks for your vulnerability - I'm sure it wasn't easy to write! I've been humbled too many times to count since the girls were each born. Apologizing to Carson was the best thing you can do. It's so eye-opening when you realize how sensitive their little hearts are. I just want to hug you right now!